my day so far...

I feel....blah.

better, yet frustrated.

glad thee school I really wanted to go to called today. :)

-I applied today; YAYYY!-

my day started off with some major bs.

my auntie trying to play moms...a spot already filled by my big sister.

...had to get physical with her today.

she said I'm defiant and rude.

I don't care and I told her that.

Stupid dumb hoe ass bitch.

-whew, she sure knows how to upset me-

I don't understand my fucking family...

I am so sheltered yet they want me to make decisions as an adult how thee fuck is that supposed to work?

I've just learned what freedom and real fun is.

I've just got into thee real world, shit I'm not even in thee real world yet.

I don't have a job or anything.

&Why is it that my auntie, grandparents, and parents always arguing over who I should live with?

I wish I could just be like "fuck you all, I'm going to ________"

But, I have no place for that (__blank__).

I have no particular person that I can vent to so here I am on my blog, spilling my every thought right now.

My foot is bleeding like hell because I stepped on a nail but, oddly or lazily I'm ignoring it.

I've eaten absolutely nothing nor have I gotten any real sleep.

I'm not even hungry nor am I tired...

I think I'm beginning to understand how eating disorders come about.

&why celebs look awkardly thin and tired; STRESS!

when everything else seems wrong you don't notice how wrong other things feel...if I even worded that correctly. =\